Kimpoi

I love you so much but i guess you dont understand how much i care. Everything weve been through. I’ve always stayed by your side but i guess you dont see that. As much as it hurts deep inside i have to let you go cause ive shed my last tear.

Where do i go from here now. It took us one hell of awhile. Tell me how we fell apart. When i gave you my all from the start. You were my angel, you and me together. We were untouchable but when you let time play its role it becomes unpredictable.  Everything was changing. Lies, rumors. Everything inside me rearranging. No more facin hard decisions in my life in a twisted situation but i gotta wonder why. Tell me why did it have to be this way. Its best that we go our separate ways. I tried to fight it the way i feel for you but this pain wont let me go. If you only could try to see but i guess this love was just not meant to be. Though it seems love was our destiny. You could not love me the way that i love you.

I shed my tear with you. I cried my last cry with you.

to be continue ………………..

Take a look at what you have. Think of the things you did to get it.  Remember it takes only one second to loose it. Sometimes what you want isnt always what you get, but in the end what you get is so much better than what you wanted.

The most cruel thing a person can do is to forbid someone from saying “i love you” to the one you love yet it is more cruel to force one to say “i love you not” to the one you love most. To love is to risk not bein loved in return. To hope is to risk. To try is to risk failure but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.

The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you were not paying attention before. It hurts to see your lost love walk past you with another girl, its even worst to know that you made a mistake in letting him go.

I was finally getting over you and actually believing i didnt need you. I was finally accepting the fact that you had another girl. Then you smiled at me and ruined it all. Do not ever give up if you still want to try. Dont ever wipe your tears if you still want to cry. Dont ever settle for an answer if you still want to know. Dont ever say you love him if you cant ever let him go.

How can i forget you if youre always on my mind?  How can i not want you when youre all i want inside?  How can i let you go when i cant see us apart? How can i not love you when you control my heart? I thought that by telling myself and everyone else that i hated you. That sooner or later i would come to believe it but now i realized that it makes me want you even more.

Letting go of someone is really hard but holding to someone who doesnt even  feel the same is much harder. Giving up doesnt mean that youre weak. It only means that you are strong enough to let go.

One day you will love me the way that i love you, one day you will think of me the way i thought of you. One day you will cry for me just like the way i cried for you, one day you will want me but i wont want you.

You hurt me more than i deserve, how can you be so cruel?  I love you more than you deserve , why am i such a fool?

Some people say the worst way to miss someone is when they are right next to you but they dont even think of you but worst when you thought you didnt want them anymore and then all of a sudden you realize you cant live without them. Days continue to pass, stars continue to shine. Someday well know if love can move a mountain. Someday well know why i wasnt meant for you.

Sa simula it was great. He gives you everything. He makes you feel so important. He calls you every minute, texts you every second and wants to see you everyday but the moment you gave your “i do” the sweet “yes” everything transforms into nightmare.  Hes not the sweet guy you knew. Not the guy who courted you.

The first month was great. He’s still the prince charming you thought. Your knight shining armor. He greats you good morning, tells you that hes so lucky to have you in his life and the “iloveyou” word is always there and the “takecare”. Hes loving you and giving you the world. Everytime youre together he doesnt want the day to end so that you will be together forever. Naks! Napakasarap!

BUT…………………………………………………. as time goes by you will realize that somethings wrong. Somethings different. Somethings not right. He doesnt greet you everymorning. No more text worst of all no more “iloveyou” and “takecare”. Everytime you text him he would always say that hes busy with work doing something important and lots of allibyes. Before you can use his phone even without permission and now hes phone has lock code and everytime you borrow his phone he makes reasons and stuff.

During the courting he always tells me how hurt he was when his x played on him. How sad and depressed he was when he knew that his past gf’s cheated and lied on him. He even promised that hes afraid to cheat and lie because he is afraid of karma.

Im so sad right now… Cant think right and im fighting what im feeling. I dont know how long can i take this… Its going to be hard again to start from the top…