I love you so much but i guess you dont understand how much i care. Everything weve been through. I’ve always stayed by your side but i guess you dont see that. As much as it hurts deep inside i have to let you go cause ive shed my last tear.

Where do i go from here now. It took us one hell of awhile. Tell me how we fell apart. When i gave you my all from the start. You were my angel, you and me together. We were untouchable but when you let time play its role it becomes unpredictable.  Everything was changing. Lies, rumors. Everything inside me rearranging. No more facin hard decisions in my life in a twisted situation but i gotta wonder why. Tell me why did it have to be this way. Its best that we go our separate ways. I tried to fight it the way i feel for you but this pain wont let me go. If you only could try to see but i guess this love was just not meant to be. Though it seems love was our destiny. You could not love me the way that i love you.

I shed my tear with you. I cried my last cry with you.

to be continue ………………..

Take a look at what you have. Think of the things you did to get it.  Remember it takes only one second to loose it. Sometimes what you want isnt always what you get, but in the end what you get is so much better than what you wanted.

The most cruel thing a person can do is to forbid someone from saying “i love you” to the one you love yet it is more cruel to force one to say “i love you not” to the one you love most. To love is to risk not bein loved in return. To hope is to risk. To try is to risk failure but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.

The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you were not paying attention before. It hurts to see your lost love walk past you with another girl, its even worst to know that you made a mistake in letting him go.

I was finally getting over you and actually believing i didnt need you. I was finally accepting the fact that you had another girl. Then you smiled at me and ruined it all. Do not ever give up if you still want to try. Dont ever wipe your tears if you still want to cry. Dont ever settle for an answer if you still want to know. Dont ever say you love him if you cant ever let him go.

How can i forget you if youre always on my mind?  How can i not want you when youre all i want inside?  How can i let you go when i cant see us apart? How can i not love you when you control my heart? I thought that by telling myself and everyone else that i hated you. That sooner or later i would come to believe it but now i realized that it makes me want you even more.

Letting go of someone is really hard but holding to someone who doesnt even  feel the same is much harder. Giving up doesnt mean that youre weak. It only means that you are strong enough to let go.

One day you will love me the way that i love you, one day you will think of me the way i thought of you. One day you will cry for me just like the way i cried for you, one day you will want me but i wont want you.

You hurt me more than i deserve, how can you be so cruel?  I love you more than you deserve , why am i such a fool?

Some people say the worst way to miss someone is when they are right next to you but they dont even think of you but worst when you thought you didnt want them anymore and then all of a sudden you realize you cant live without them. Days continue to pass, stars continue to shine. Someday well know if love can move a mountain. Someday well know why i wasnt meant for you.

Sa simula it was great. He gives you everything. He makes you feel so important. He calls you every minute, texts you every second and wants to see you everyday but the moment you gave your “i do” the sweet “yes” everything transforms into nightmare.  Hes not the sweet guy you knew. Not the guy who courted you.

The first month was great. He’s still the prince charming you thought. Your knight shining armor. He greats you good morning, tells you that hes so lucky to have you in his life and the “iloveyou” word is always there and the “takecare”. Hes loving you and giving you the world. Everytime youre together he doesnt want the day to end so that you will be together forever. Naks! Napakasarap!

BUT…………………………………………………. as time goes by you will realize that somethings wrong. Somethings different. Somethings not right. He doesnt greet you everymorning. No more text worst of all no more “iloveyou” and “takecare”. Everytime you text him he would always say that hes busy with work doing something important and lots of allibyes. Before you can use his phone even without permission and now hes phone has lock code and everytime you borrow his phone he makes reasons and stuff.

During the courting he always tells me how hurt he was when his x played on him. How sad and depressed he was when he knew that his past gf’s cheated and lied on him. He even promised that hes afraid to cheat and lie because he is afraid of karma.

Im so sad right now… Cant think right and im fighting what im feeling. I dont know how long can i take this… Its going to be hard again to start from the top…

One fine day, an old couple around the age of 70, walks into a lawyer’s office.
Apparently, they are there to file a divorce.

Lawyer was very puzzled, after having a chat with them, he got their story….
This couple had been quarreling all their 40 over yrs of marriage nothing ever seems to go right.

They hang on because of their children, afraid that it might affect their up-bringing. Now, all their children have already grown up, have their own family, there’s nothing else the old couple have to worry about, all they wanted is to lead their own life free from all these years of unhappiness from their marriage, so both agree on a divorce….

Lawyer was having a hard time trying to get the papers done, because he felt that after 40 yrs of marriage at the age of 70, he couldnt understand why the old couple would still want a divorce..

While they were signing the papers, the wife told the husband..
“I really love u, but i really cant carry on anymore, I’m sorry..”
“Its o.k, i understand..” said the husband. Lookin at this, the lawyer suggested a dinner together, just 3 of them,wife thought, why not, since they are still gonna be friends..

At the dining table, there was a silence of awkardness.
The first dish was roasted chicken, immediately, the old man took the drumstick for the old lady..”take this, its your favourite..”

Looking at this, the lawyer thought maybe theres still a chance, but the wife was frowning when she answer..”
This is always the problem, you always think so highly of yourself, never thought about how I feel, dont you know that i hate drumsticks?”

Little did she know that, over the years, the husband have been trying all ways to please her, little did she know that drumsticks was the husband’s favourite. Little did he know that she never thought he understand her at all, little did he know that she hates drummsticks even though all he wants is the best for her.

That night, both of them couldnt sleep, toss and turn, toss and turn…after hours, the old man couldnt take it anymore, he knows that he still loves her, and he cant carry on life without her, he wants her back, he wants to tell her, he is sorry, he wanted to tell her “i love you”…

He picks up the phone, starting dialing her number….ringing never stops..he never stop dialing….

On the other side, she was sad, she couldn’t understand how come after all these years, he still doesnt understand her at all, she loves him a lot, but she just cant take it anymore….phone’s ringing, she refuses to answer knowing that its him…”whats the point of talking now that its over…i have ask for it and now i wanna keep it this way, if not i will lose face..”she thought…still ringing…she have decided to pull out the cord…

Little did she remember, he have heart problems…

The next day, she received news that he had passed away…she rushed down to his apartment, saw his body, lying on the couch still holding on to the phone…he had a heart attack when he was still trying to get through her phone line….

As sad as she could be…she will have to clear his belongings…when she was looking thru the drawers, she saw this insurance policy, dated from the day they got married, with the beneficiary being her… And together in those file, there was this note…

“To my dearest wife, by the time you’re reading this, I’m sure I’m no longer around, I bought this policy for you, though the amount is only $100k, I hope it will be able to help me continue my promise that i have made when we got married, I might not be around anymore, I want this amount of money to continue taking care of you, just like the way I will if I could have live longer. I want you to know Iwill always be around, by your side… I love you”

Tears flowed like river……

“When you love someone, let them know… You never know what will happen the next minute…. Learn to build a life together.. Learn to love each other. For who they are.. not what they are…”

 Erin Gruwell. The author of Freedom Writers.

I waited 3 days just to watch this movie. I even wrote it to my post it and alarmed my phone to remind me to watch this movie.

The movie was about a teacher who touched her students heart and made a change to their lives. A changed that made the students realized right from wrong. She taught them to make choices, choices that would really affect their future. She even taught the students to open their heart and forgive and trust not just their own race but also to other races.

I admired her for what she did. She is considered as a hero and i consider her as a hero. This story tells us that we can help anyone. A small way of help can result on a big thing and could affect the future. 

We can touch anyone’s life even if we are not a teacher. We don’t need to be a politician, celebrity, someone famous or rich just to help people. Money is important in life but that’s not everything. Teaching, educating and listening to people can make a big change to their lives. All we need is to help each other in anyways.   

Everyday is a new challenge for each and everyone of us. Its up to us on how we face the challenges.

We should always be reminded that we were created by our Creator in different colors, different physique, different languages but created with the same purpose 

2. If you think you’re fat, you probably are. Don’t ask us.

3. Learn to work the toilet seat: if it’s up put it down.

4. Don’t cut your hair. Ever.

5. Birthdays, Valentines, and Anniversaries are not quests to see if he can find the perfect present, again!

6. If you ask a question you don’t want an answer to, expect an answer you don’t want to hear.

7. Sometimes, he’s not thinking about you. Live with it.

8. Don’t ask him what he’s thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as navel lint, the shotgun formation and monster trucks.

9. Get rid of your cat. And no, it’s not different, it’s just like every other cat.

10. Dogs are better than ANY cats. Period.

11. Sunday = Sports. It’s like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be.

12. Shopping is not a sport.

13. Anything you wear is fine. Really.

14. You have enough clothes.

15. You have too many shoes.

16. Crying is blackmail. Use it if you must, but don’t expect us to like it.

17. Your brother is an idiot, you ex-boyfriend is an idiot and your Dad probably is too.

18. Ask for what you want. Subtle hints don’t work.

19. No, he doesn’t know what day it is. He never will. Mark anniversaries on a calendar.

20. Yes, pissing standing up is more difficult than peeing from point blank range. We’re bound to miss sometimes.

21. Most guys own two or three pairs of shoes — What makes you think we’d be any good at choosing which pair, out of thirty, would look good with your dress?

22. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers.

23. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor.

24. Your Mom doesn’t have to be our best friend.

25. Foreign films are best left to foreigners.

26. Check you oil.

27. Don’t give us 50 rules when 25 will do.

28. Don’t fake it. We’d rather be ineffective than deceived.

29. It is neither in your best interest or ours to take the quiz together.

30. Anything we said 6 or 8 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. All comments become null and void after 7 days.

31. If you don’t dress like the Victoria’s Secret girls, don’t expect us to act like soap opera guys.

32. If something we said can be interpreted two ways, and one of the ways makes you sad and angry, we meant the other one.

33. Let us ogle. If we don’t look at other women, how can we know how pretty you are?

34. You can either ask us to do something OR tell us how you want it done — not both.

35. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials.

36. Christopher Columbus didn’t need directions, and neither do we.

37. Women wearing Wonder bras and low-cut blouses lose their right to complain about having their boobs stared at.

38. Consider Golf a mini-vacation from you. We need it, just like you do.

39. Telling us that the models in the men’s magazines are airbrushed makes you look jealous and petty and it’s certainly not going to deter us from reading the magazine.

40. The relationship is never going to be like it was the first two months we were going out.

AND FINALLY, THE NUMBER ONE RULE:
1. Don’t rub the lamp if you don’t want the genie to come out.

Damn. I just keep thinking about you. I mean I want to move on. Its like you have some kind of hold on me. But Im a go ahead and talk about it.

Im sitting, looking out the window. Trying to fix this situation thats at hand. You still running through my mind when im knowing that you shouldnt be. Me all on your mind and im knowing that it couldnt be. I still got a lot of pain. I aint dealt with it all. Im single and they loving it. Im liking it but I just want the one that I was inlove with. Thats not the end of it. Im trying to let you know you got a hold or some kind of control of me. I dont know what it is but I got to get you gone from me. Im working at it and it aint getting no better. Instead of staring out this glass looking at this bad weather damn I got to pull myself together.

When im with somebody all I think is about you. When im all alone thats all I want to do. I miss the smiling faces in my sidekick. All the time we spent together makes it hard to get you out of my system. Im too attached my heart wont let me fall back. I got it bad thats what you call that. When I see you thats the worst for me. Used to love the little things you did, thats what works for me. Its too major, dont see you in my phone. Know what youre doing, where you at, or can I see you later. The fellas telling me “Just let him go, kim”. Believe me Im trying I just dont know how.

Is it wrong for me to feel this way? Youve been running throung my mind all day can you feel me. Ive been trying to get you off my mind but I cant after all this time. Thats what kills me. I remember everything that me and you talked about and if I could, I would turn back the hands of time and correct all my mistakes that I ever did. But know I guess I got to move on, right? Its still hard and I still love you.

To let go isn’t to forget, not to think about, or ignore.  It doesn’t
leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret.  Letting go isn’t about
winning or losing.  It’s not about pride and it’s not about how you
appear, and it’s not obsessing or dwelling on the past.  Letting go
isn’t blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and it doesn’t leave
emptiness, hurt, or sadness.  It’s not about giving in or giving up.
Letting go isn’t about loss and it’s not about defeat.  To let go is
to cherish the memories, but to overcome and move on.  It is having
an open mind and confidence in the future.  Letting go is learning
and experiencing and growing.  To let go is to be thankful for the
experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow.
It’s about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will
soon gain.  Letting go is having the courage to accept change,
and the strength to keep moving.  Letting go is growing up.  It is
realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy.
To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and set yourself free.

I was happy yesterday to get a phone call from an old friend who said he came across Romance Tracker by doing a Google search for something having to do with romance.He was surprised to see my smiling mug here on the site and called to ask me how long I’d been blogging about old-fashioned romantic ideas.

I started Romance Tracker only four months ago, and it’s a great feeling to have an acquaintance randomly stumble upon the site while they were looking for romance advice!  The huge amount of daily search traffic we’re getting from people looking to add romance to their relationships is really encouraging, and the call I got from my friend was great inspiration to continue posting.

There are more romantic people out there than ever before!

 disagree with him, of course, although I do understand his frustration.  It can take many years for a romantic person to find that perfect someone, and until that day comes it’s easy to find yourself thinking that you’re the last person on earth who really cares about romance.  Today’s society and pop culture doesn’t really give a whit about true romance, as flipping through the cable channels or listening to the radio will quickly show you.

That doesn’t mean, though, that there are no romantic people left in the world!  On the contrary, I believe that there are more romantic people than ever before surrounding us.  With the media and pop culture becoming so crass and cynical about romance, the truly romantic couples out there are learning the value of keeping their relationships private and finding pleasure in simply making each other happy.

Remember: true romance in relationships is subtle, not flashy.  And for that very reason, romantic couples can sometimes be hard to find.  But it doesn’t mean they aren’t there

The secret to meeting a romantic person

But what about finding a romantic man or woman who isn’t taken yet?  Do romantic single people really even exist in the world anymore?

Of course they do!  And they aren’t really that hard to find, either, no matter where you live.  The problem facing most people who are looking for a romantic boyfriend or girlfriend is that they are looking in the wrong places.

There really is a guaranteed way to meet a person who values romance as much as you, and this is it: surround yourself in a romantic environment.  No, I don’t mean you should cut out a bunch of little paper hearts and hang them all over your office.  But I do mean that you should commit yourself to living a romantic lifestyle to attract other people of the same mindset.

No, you probably aren’t going to meet a romantic person in a bar

It may be easier to meet single people at bars and clubs, but do you really think that you’re likely to find a romantic person at one of those places?  By spending your free time in activities and places that truly interest and inspire you, you’re much more likely to eventually come across another single person who values the same.

It may take longer to find someone by immersing yourself in what you enjoy, but when you finally do begin a relationship it will be with a person who has similar interests, similar passions, and a similar love for romance.  By taking your time, you’ll guarantee yourself a more stable, more fulfilling and more exciting relationship.

Be proud of being romantic . . . and you’ll find that special someone

So take heart if you’re one of the many single people who feels doomed to never finding that special someone who is as romantic as you are.  He or she is out there, I guarantee it, and you’re going to find them sooner or later.

But by surrounding yourself in a romantic environment and letting yourself do the things you love to do, you’ll help make that day come sooner . . . rather than later!

Falling inlove with someone is wonderful, intense experience, but it can also be more little confussing. Having a hard time figuring what the hell is wrong with you Are you sick? Going crazy?  DId someone cast a voodoo curse  on you? 

Well, probably not. The first early symptoms of being in love can mirror illness or mental instability, sure. But once you learn to really enjoy being in love and get used to the idea of having a little old-fashioned romance in your life, you’ll start to appreciate these weird new symptoms you’ve come down with.

So, are you really in love, or just infatuated? People who fall in love for the first time experience hundreds of unique and individual emotions, thoughts and feelings, but there are a few classic symptoms that most lovesick individuals tend to develop.

1. think about them all of the time

2. everything reminds you of them

3. you care more about their safety and happiness than you do about your own

4. you start caring more about your own appearance

5. you’re actually interested in knowing more about them

6. you want to impress them

7. you aren’t as tight with your money or time anymore

8. hanging out with your friends just isn’t as appealing any more

9. commitment is actually starting to sound like something you could stand

10. you just aren’t noticing other members of the opposite sex

mao ni akong gibati. pero not sure if this is love. toinks!